Written in 24.3.90

All is Brahma, the one without a second; only the Brahma, as unity or absolute, is too much of an abstraction to be loved and worshipped; so the Bhakta chooses the relative aspect of Brahma, that is, Ishwara, the supreme ruler.

Swami Vivekananda

I agree that all is Brahma, the absolute, the Shoonya, it is an abstraction which is difficult to relate oneself to, difficult to love or worship. But why is it necessary to worship?

Why is it necessary to love the Shoonya, the Brahma, the God? Isn’t loving its creations enough? If one doesn’t have the capacity to love even a fraction of all the life forms, how can one be expected to love the God, the Shoonya?

True, that a person who understands and believes in an impersonal God will not be able to worship it. But isn’t understanding it enough? Shouldn’t the believer be doing his duty towards the mankind now? What’s the use of revelation, enlightenment and understanding God, if that doesn’t help you in opening your eyes to another being in pain and grief?

Of course, some people might need a personal God for inspiring them to work and help others. Still, I am grateful to them, as, at least they are doing their Karma, their duty. But in the present world we need more of Karma Yogis and Jnana Yogis and less of Bhakti Yogis. A person, in present days, absorbed in Bhakti, is doing his best, trying to reach God. Trying to attain Mukti forever from this world. But isn’t he selfish if knowing the condition of the world, he is trying to reach Mukti only for himself? Shouldn’t he be teaching his devotion, his bhakti, to other striving souls too, so that they may also be free from the bondages of the world, see light in the darkness?

I have taken birth from the Shoonya, the Absolute, just like every other living and non-living thing. Now, till I am in this physical self, I have my duties, my Karma, towards this material world. I have had my commitments, my responsibilities since the day I was born; and will remain bound till my death. Till then, I must work. By being free of sorrow, happiness, anger, love, hatred, etc. I can make myself a freer person. But till I am free of time, space, life and death, I am bound. And bound I shall remain till death comes and frees me. For the short time that I live, I am committed to my duties… towards the body, as well as the soul.

Dialogues with myself

The above thoughts, or 'Dialogues with Myself', were a big part of my adolescent years, where not content with the way society and religion spoke about God and many other things and expected us kids to accept everything without questioning, since they knew better, I tried to debate against their beliefs using my own beliefs reached at by my logical understanding on the subject.

I was unwilling to accept their answers at face value and thus many questions arose in my heart, my mind, my soul for which I sought for the answers within. This gave rise to further questions that seemingly were posed by my own conditioning, the value system given by my family, related and unrelated elders, my education and the society, and I tried to find answers to these as well.

There will be more such posts of 'Dialogues with Myself' where I am questioning the existing norms and wisdoms of the society. Some of my thoughts and answers I reached back then in my high school and early college days are still relevant to me, some I have outgrown and yet some others I have built upon later as my thoughts and understanding matured and life experiences taught me more about others and myself.