Mind is the invisible existence of the qualitative properties of the visible brain. It is the reason behind our ability to judge the difference between what’s good and what’s not; the master of our conscience, and thus, our actions.

A normal human mind, qualitatively is divided into two parts – positive and negative. The parts by themselves are not good or bad as goodness or badness in any thing is subject to the conditions under which they are being judged. By goo or bad I mean one side which favours Good, i.e; Morality, Ethics etc. and the other side which does not. It depends on the human being as to which part he nourishes and cares for more.

Deeper within this ever thoughtful mind is a very calm thoughtless state which exists to a greater or lesser degree in each human and animal life, including birds and insects. Does this thoughtless calm centre also exist for the plant kingdom and the inanimate objects, say a rock for example, as well? I wonder.

It is the omniscient, the creator, God, absolute knowledge, Shoonya, the Parbrahma. Call it whatever you will.

This state is the origin of our thoughts, which in turn influence our actions. This know-all thoughtless state is a silent spectator to our mind’s tensions and turmoils, happiness and sorrows etc. It knows the results of our arguments with ourselves but due to its very quality, the non-negative zero, the nirguna Brahma, it is unable to help us unless we call it for help. This is the God we should call for help, not the images in temples and churches. 

To worship God does not mean going to temples where so may forms of the Formless, thousands of names of the Nameless are worshipped

Ancient philosophers and spiritualists knew what they were talking about but the later people including the preachers followed the literal meaning of their words instead of the implied meaning.

To worship God does not mean going to temples where so may forms of the Formless, thousands of names of the Nameless are worshipped; nor does it mean that you should worship some historical legend or mythological figure just because of their good deeds. Worshipping God means listening to that part of your mind which is the voice of your conscience that speaks to you when you have a negative thought or are about to take a negative action. It is the conscience that does not listen to your logical reasonings or rationalisations in favour of a bad thought or action.

This does not mean that you should ostracise each thought produced by the negative side of your mind, since only by knowing evil will we be able to understand good. Those who have not seen darkness can not appreciate light. I just mean to say that listen to each and every thought that your mind produces, but do not put them in to practice unless they pass the internal test your conscience puts them through. Only by knowing the amount of negative thoughts you are capable of, will you be able to take steps strong enough to weed them out and bring out the inherent good in you.

I remember a quote by someone “Stronger is the man who has known temptation and resisted it, than the man who has not known temptation at all.

If you have a weak mind you are likely to give in to your negative thoughts while in the process of listening to them. This is where you may find meditation to be a strong ally.

Close your eyes and concentrate on the centre of the imaginary line on your forehead joining your eyebrows. Clear out all thoughts from your mind. It may take a lot of time in the beginning but after practice it will become easier and quicker. Imagine you are falling in an endless chasm and the walls of the chasm are converging into the centre spot on your forehead. Let yourself fall. Soon you will feel as if weightless and floating in that chasm. You will feel as if in a free fall but with no gravity pulling you down. All will be peaceful, calm and quiet. Try remaining in that state for a few minutes. It is a nice world to be in.

Dialogues with myself

The above thoughts, or 'Dialogues with Myself', were a big part of my adolescent years, where not content with the way society and religion spoke about God and many other things and expected us kids to accept everything without questioning, since they knew better, I tried to debate against their beliefs using my own beliefs reached at by my logical understanding on the subject.

I was unwilling to accept their answers at face value and thus many questions arose in my heart, my mind, my soul for which I sought for the answers within. This gave rise to further questions that seemingly were posed by my own conditioning, the value system given by my family, related and unrelated elders, my education and the society, and I tried to find answers to these as well.

There will be more such posts of 'Dialogues with Myself' where I am questioning the existing norms and wisdoms of the society. Some of my thoughts and answers I reached back then in my high school and early college days are still relevant to me, some I have outgrown and yet some others I have built upon later as my thoughts and understanding matured and life experiences taught me more about others and myself.